Over the years and looking back, life and time sneaks up on you. It makes you wonder what the heck happened when you're sitting on a couch at the end of the year and re evaluating some things have changed and somethings remain the same.
In life we all go through stages of ups and downs, it is in fact inevitable the trials we face. Whether in life or death, love or love lost, new associations and new beginnings. We confront ourselves with each challenge and face our best and worst self. Situations make us grow and we find ourselves growing internally and some set us back until we can find a way to grow after we have faced fears, pride lost, egos and change.
About Health
This year one of my favorite ladies, Kaylan and I had a discussion about physical growth. Her and I broke our spines around the same time and mine is a more fragile than hers. She has an infused spine which makes her stronger in carrying weight after she healed properly. For me, I just barely had a back brace dumpster day. I haven't worn it in forever but I worried I would have to go back in it because of the loss of mid section strength. The truth is, I miss my body two years ago. I thought I had a hot little bod and wore it proudly. She and I know what it's like to lose the ability to workout the way we need to. Being fit is a way of life that carries into our mature adult years and sustains our healthy internal organs. Everyone knows a healthy body is best. Well, I came to a fork in the road and chose to better my health. Back to my high school body weight and working on strength training. It's so important for me to be happy and everyone whether they love a little love handles, extra booty in the trunk, softer curves we all prefer a certain shape that maintains our smiles.
I love Iman Woods, she's healthy but curvy and promotes curves. Curves are great! After all the back brace caused me to go from a B to a DD. I'm cool with that! I have more hips and butt, again I am cool with that. Just not the loss of
strength. My Mother always use to call me 'Little Helga' because I could lift anything and she'd be amazed. I could carry the whole car full of heavy groceries in one load because I hated to come back to the car making trips. I'm a tiny thing but those days are gone.The moral of that story? Be happy in the body you are in at your most comfortable state and working towards health should be a life long goal. I'm a little bit of a health nut with a chocolate junkie crave and know the battle. The struggle is real!
About Love
I think I have fallen in love a small handful of times, sometimes I get men more into it than I have been or I haven't fully appreciated them when I had them in my arms. When I focus so much on work and achievement it becomes sometimes impossible to shut off my drive. I could've married twice now with two men asking me to spend my life with them, one I'm completely fine with ending and one is an amazing person and I wasn't ready. Now looking back, I would have been happy but life and love is all about timing...that leap of faith. Some opportunities we can never retrieve and they pass us so quickly. Everyone chooses paths in their life that lead us to a destination and our goals that drive us.
I haven't been the type to carry a child and not by choice but have known chances are slim since I was young but amazingly enough I had the chance to raise four kids as my own in a way for many years when I was younger. I loved them with unconditional love and if that's all I have in life, that is enough. Love in all relationships is the key to a long term happiness but it should be healthy and giving. Love is about selflessness and I am still working on that but love is not selfish or full of fear. I en devour to find love in all things and that is what drives my happiness and helps us to see people in a better light. Seeing past our flaws and realizing we are all unique in how we see the world.
The motto I love and learned from my dear old teacher with such a warm heart said to me and it's stuck with me for years..."The saddest words of tongue and pen are these, what might have been"
Also, I love (however cheesy this may sound)
the quote from the recent Cinderella, "Have courage and be kind". Those
are powerful words.
About Family
We all have moments where we want to grit our teeth being around family for functions but for mine, I can't say I do too often. I have been so blessed with so many people who surround me with care and support. Family is a unit that if strong can never cease to amaze the foundation on which we stand as human beings. My family has issues as any would but I have seen so many come out on top with each issue. Excel in their personal growth and be happy.
I've lost some members but they are always there in spirit. I can still hear my dad's voice say a cheesy line when I'd mention something and it makes me smile. They're always with us.
About Work
I love growing in work and achieving my dreams. I am after all only accountable to me for my successes or failures. Business opportunities have been incredible and keep growing beyond what I had thought to achieve. I am grateful. Passions are what drives us to succeed. I can't complain and hope to be so much better at people skills. After all this shy girl (only at first) has a lot to do and say.
That's about all I have for this end of the year thoughts but the key is to always treasure the moments we have and to not take them for granted. Life is an ever changing moment.
